Pregnancy journal#2 Post 1 (3rd JUl 09)
After my rattling for so long, finally.. Haa I or we start working on to have #2baby..hee... Taking note of my ovaluation calender and hee..try to work towards convenincing. :)
in late June.. I started to have some signs of easy faigue. I get so sleepy at nite, around 10pm. My body started to be weaker.. I always have colds, but my colds seem to get more severe at nites, I ocassionally will hv mirgraine and slight headaches.
I pants easily, but well it is Quite common as I never hv an excerise regime :P.
But then when I was showering, I felt my br**sts are fuller and more sensitive. Hmm... I feel tat I felt the sign of pregnancy.. I told these to Hubby that I might be preggy, hee but he keep asking me nt to think too much.
He feared I might be dissappointed if I am not.. wont la.. I so happy-go-lucky de..dont hv? try again next month lo :)
Actually since Rayden turned 2, I am already ready to hv #2, but due to the fact that my MIL commented before that coW-goat's r/s are not very good, hence since I got to hear tat, I better avoid if possible. Tiger, good for my hubby... but i fear his/her life might be tough leh.
But hahaa..if I continue to think so much, i think i would never ready for #2.
My menses suppose to due by first week of July. If it hv not arrive yet, I might hv chance.. Haa
Now what I need to do is to wait patiently until 7thJuly, if still not yet, i would get myself a kit to test .. hee *good luck*
Pregnancy journal#2 Post 2 (6th JUl 09)
These days everytime before i went to the toilet, I would pray silently, hope i dont see RED. Hee.. so far still nope, I told Hubby, he is starting to say I really think you are preggy.
Hehehe.. I cant wait anymore. I am gg to get a pregnancy kit when on the way home.. Hee .. Maybe I will try it out tomorrow or so.. Haa.. As for the gynae, I guess I would choose Dr Adrian.
Hee I got so many frens with him, i bet he must be good :) .
Haa ..still too early to talk about this eh? Hee ...
Quick quick 530pm soon, i wanna go pharmancy!! I am startg to talk to my baby#2 already :)
Pregnancy journal#2 Post 3 (7th JUl 09)
Yesterday after work, went to get the gold kiwi and pregnancy kit.. Hee..
I did the test this morning, on the T & C window, I got a red bold line on the C window only :( , but shortly I see a faint line on the T window too.
Hee both lines appear, most likely I am preggy. Hee.. Well though the kit didnt gv a very firm answer. But knowing my body, I think I am preggy. Haa..Coz I seldom late for menses.
I am planning to book an appointment with Dr Adrian Woodworth next week. Haa.
Oh I am deciding between Dr Lawrence Ang and Dr Adrian, I have received very positive comments from both gynaecologists. But I got more friends with Dr Adrian. hee... So I think I will choose Dr Adrian.
Heee Juz booked my first appointment with Dr Adrian, 21th Jul, Tues, between 6-8pm.
Pregnancy journal#2 Post 4 (21th JUl 09)
The much waited day have finally arrived. Wow, Dr Adrian is indeed popular, his little clinic is full of eager mums & dads. Then finally our turn, went into the consultation room,
Dr Adrian asked some questions, then proceed to the scanning, I was so excited. But as I watched the monitor during the scan, I getting more n more worried. Coz I couldnt see a thing in my womb, it looked empty.
Dr Adrian scanned all over the place, zoom in & out, and asked me a couple of questions, any bleeding, any sharp pains, how long is my cycle, even more fear i instilled :(
In the end, he measured something longish & black, 1.2cm. He told me this is the sac, but too early now, week 5, cant see much, I am supposed to come back 2 weeks later. Hope everything is fine, of coz I cant
help but worried abit. Total consultation $170.1, I was given prenatal vitamin and folic acid.
Pregnancy journal#2 Post 5 (4th Aug 09)
Finally today, again waiting eagerly to see Dr Adrian. I was praying all these while and talking to my baby, "please show yourself today, Mummy & Daddy really hope to see you".
Went into the clinic with high hopes, as I believed my pregnancy should be fine juz tat was too early to be seen.
Out we came from the clinic, worried and sad I feel. Yes, once again, we could not see the fetal pole but only a growing water bag measuring at 5cm.
Dr Adrian told me, at this time, 8th week, it's either I had miscarriaged OR the fetus is really growing very slowly, which is not a good signs as well. I started to be very worried.
Hubby consoled me to take it easy and see how things go. Dr Adrian scheduled me for another visit the following week. COnsultation was another $150+, he gave me duphaston to stablise my pregnancy.
Pregnancy journal#2 Post 6 (13th Aug 09)
Really quite worried and I only realised all my initial signs of fatigue and swolleness had disappeared. I measured myself with the pregnacy kit again, yes i am preggy, nothing wrong.
I was given M/C on 13th, Dr Adrian had mentioned I should do a blood test to compare my hormone level.
13th, went for his afternoon clinic, it is still as crowded as the evening clinic, he's really popular.
Again, the scan, we see nothing but the waterbag and furthermore even the waterbag wasnt growing anymore. I took the blood test #1, i am supposed to go back for 2nd bloodtest on Sat.
Consultation + bloodtest : $192.60.
Sat, Hubby went along with me, took my 2nd blood sample, Dr Adrian told me the 1st blood test, measured at 7000+, if my pregnancy go well, I should be expecting at least 1.5x increase.
Bloodtest cost : $55+
Pregnancy journal#2 Post 7 (18th Aug 09)
Hubby is away to Bangkok for his company trip, I went to Dr Adrian alone, with heavy heart.I am really not expecting anything more.
The 2nd blood test gave an declined results, to 5000+. Dr Adrian confirmed I had miscarriage and I am advised to do an D/C to remove it soon.
I did some research prior to this and visited some forums, I will opt for D/C rather than let it discharge itself naturally.
The operation is scheduled on 19th Aug (wed) at TMC.
Consultation was $150+, i was given 2 tabs of cytotec with 2 tabs of painkillers, I supposed to take it before the operation, i think this aid the discharge.
2 more antibotics were given, these are for after Op, Doxycycline and Flagyl. And painkillers, to be taken when neccessary.
After all these events, Ups then downs...
I am sad over the loss, I keep wondering what happened to me, I always deem fit and fine, why and how did my pregnancy goes wrong??
I asked Dr Adrian why and how, he couldnt explained but he told me it happened 1 out of every 4 cases. A lot of factors could attribute to it.
What I have eaten and done would not contribute to my loss.
We were thinking perhaps it's not so bad, as we didnt even see the fetus but only sac and waterbag all this while. Hence it's wasnt so bad, that the life wasnt exactly formed.
This is a better way than to have a deformed or unhealthy baby, yes i agreed. But again cant help but feeling sorry and sad over the loss.
To baby#2:
Although Mummy & Daddy did not even see you or feel you, but Mummy knows you were here with me for a very short while. I am so sorry that we were not fated to be together.
But please know, we always love you and you will be remembered. Rayden gor gor knew of your existence, he even proudly called himself a gor gor.
I hope you are fine and well somewhere too. We may not have see you but I know the creation did happened, I am glad to have you for the short period, thanks for the joy you have given mummy.
Be good and well, we love you.
